So, my expectations are really, really low for Christmas. I am giving gifts the way I planned - they bring satisfaction to me and if the receiver doesn't like it, I won't get bent out of shape about it.

I am a little bent out of shape - actually. We always have Christmas breakfast/brunch and I always make the breakfast casserole. But when I asked Liz what food I needed to bring - a dessert for Christmas. OK. I really enjoy that breakfast casserole on Christmas morning and my husband does, too. Plus, I am not a fan of Liz's cooking. It's okay, not great. No WOW factor whatsoever. So, that casserole was the one link Steve and I had to something that we enjoy. BUT we do spend the holidays at Bob & Liz's house, so we have to abide by their rules. I'll eat whatever she makes, fortunately, I can't eat a lot of it! Except I won't eat that orange salad thing her mother makes - she never gets the recipe corrects and it never conjeals the right way. It has cottage cheese in it, and I hate that stuff. So, I'll make a dessert!

The other thing that I am bent about is this whole present thing - I chose NOT to make a Christmas list this year. My intentions were decent but they may backfire on us. We exchanged lists for 3 years. Now, we never, ever received one from Pam & Steve. We basically got Robert's lists and a vague idea of what to get Elizabeth. However, we provided detailed lists. (see earlier post for further ranting on this subject). So, this year - no list, I say. Steve and I have been together for 8.5 yrs - they should know us by now. Or at least Steve! When asked for the list, I replied "No list. Go with what you know." We'll see how this pans out in the end. We may be completely satisfied with the gifts. I figure that I am going to walk away with a couple of Lane Bryant gift cards. Who knows what my husband will receive? Because of the uncertainty, I went ahead and got him what he wanted. That way, he'll be satisfied.

I have made the gag gifts. I'll take pictures and post later.

As I sit here eating my breakfast of cereal and bananas, I am thinking that I got a lot accomplished yesterday and still felt lazy. I got all the gifts wrapped, read a book, did the laundry, and watched 2 movies. The 2 movies - Then She Found Me and Birds of America are new favorites. Both movies has brilliant casts and unpredictable storylines. Steve says that I love independent films. I do, but they must have a good story that is well-played. Not all indies can meet this criteria.

So, here it is.....I'm lazy. No one in my existing nucleus would believe me. But I am. My mother and my sister would believe me. The adult that I have developed into is not lazy. But when there is nothing to do, I go back to what I know - LAZY! So, that's me, on a holiday break. It can be refreshing or boring or nothing at all. But right now, all I've got is lazy to work with. My internal motivation has flown out the window. By the way, where does internal motivation come from anyways? Why do some people have gobs and gobs of the stuff and others have nothing at all?