dinner's over

Time spent with loved ones - I like it a lot. In fact, I love to cook a meal for people and spend time with them. Tonight's menu was baked spaghetti (Paula Deen's recipe), salad (simple lettuce and tomato), cheese biscuits, and strawberry shortcake for dessert (using Paula Deen's Grandmother Paul's Sour Cream Pound Cake). It was all good, and we ate too much. I needed to finish off that pound cake that I made on Christmas Eve, so the dessert was a good sacrifice.

It is time to begin the weight loss. I should finish the laundry first though. I really wish that I had a dog to walk - that would be good motivation. But then again, I don't have time to take care of a dog the way that I am supposed to. It is sad really. It would be great if we had a treadmill, but those are expensive and it wouldn't fit in our house.

So, I have the Bible on CD which I will transfer to my iPod next week. Then I will begin walking. I don't know if I have enough discipline, but one day, I would love to run a 5 or 10K. Heck! I would love to just run one mile. I have to change my sedentary lifestyle. I want to have a baby one day. Weighing 300 lbs. is not gonna work for much longer. So, the question is...........do I walk in the morning or the evening. I really liked walking in the morning because it woke me up and jump started my day. I am usually too tired to walk in the evening. Plus, I have this thing about changing clothes mid-day - I hate it. I am such a simple person that changing clothes mid-day seems unnecessary. I would rather put on my walking clothes when I wake up, walk, shower, then get dressed for work.

I have become like my mother and grandmother in stature and weight - both of which have or had diabetes. I am not willing to walk this road. So, I must forge another path.

I have thought about and done a little bit of research on lap-band surgery. I don't know. We have two friends who have done gastric bypass this year and two friends who have done lap band - it feels like peer pressure. Plus, it is the beginning of the year, so the pressure is greater to lose weight.

I wish I could weigh this much and NOT have health problems. It is not possible. I have sleep apnea and I HATE sleeping with that CPAP machine. It has done a real number on my self-esteem. Plus, I am not a restful sleeper, so in the middle of the night when the mask has shifted, I end up taking it off without realizing it. I hate that thing. I have to lose weight so that I don't have to use it.

tescille